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here's the thing about deciding to become sober. people don't get it. "how do you have fun?" "what kind of life is that without alcohol?" why do i need to rely on alcohol to be happy is my question. what makes my life so much better by getting drunk and feeling horrible the next day? or why do i need to have a glass of wine to unwind? i find there are much better ways of unwinding than drinking. why are there people who think it's cool they can drink so much and not have a hangover the next morning? i've been sober for 5 months. i decided that was a goal for the year. covid has helped a lot with that, but in general, i don't keep alcohol in my home. i have wine, but i only will open that when there's more than one person around. one of my coworkers has been sober for 7 years. i think anyone who is willing to not give in to peer pressure and to stay the course is pretty awesome.

when i was up at the farm last year, i didn't want to drink. my friend sarah gave me so much shit about it. she said that she didn't believe in sobriety. unless of course you're an alcoholic. now, of course, my sobriety is suddenly okay to her. i find people like that really obnoxious. just because i don't want to drink doesn't mean you can't drink. get as drunk as you want! i don't care. maybe my decisions don't seem like i'm really living, but do you know how much money i save because i don't drink? that money most likely paid for my bathroom remodel. so there's that.